flashbacks...

In the last couple days, I've had a couple significant "flashbacks"...

In the middle of the night on Thursday, I remembered an interaction I had with Zoe about three weeks earlier. One morning while we were playing at home, Zoe started hitting her head by her eye and saying, "It's not working - my eye is not working!" -- The "it's not working" phrase is what she says anytime she's frustrated with something - she says it often so I didn't take it literally meaning that her eye was not working. (Up to this point, we had no reason to think that she was having trouble seeing things even though her eye had changed.) I sat her on my lap and looked into her eye. Not seeing anything that would be impacting her vision, I told her it would be ok and we started playing again. In retrospect, I clearly missed a huge clue... makes me sick.

As I was folding a massive mound of laundry last night, I remembered a dream I had a few weeks ago. I had told Sean about the dream and we both thought it was really neat, but didn't know what meaning to attach to it...
In the dream, my sister Robyn was bending down reaching her arms outward to Zoe who was happily running towards her. Robyn looked so beautiful and she and Zoe were so happy to see each other. Zoe was running into her arms, but right before she reached Robyn she stopped running and didn't go to her. Then the dream ended...
My sister Robyn died a little over a year ago from breast cancer. After the events of this past week, this dream brought us a great deal of peace... just a reassurance that Zoe is staying right here with us...