Our week...

It's a darn good thing we have insurance... because we'd be in serious trouble if we didn't.  I'm incredibly thankful every day for insurance and I worry about people who aren't in the same boat.  I can't imagaine the stress that would add to already stressful situations... 

This was our week.  MONDAY = port study at the hospital.  TUESDAY = a day off, but not much to do because it was snowy.  WEDNESDAY = an appointment for me and a vascular study for Zoe at the hospital.  THURSDAY = second port surgery.  FRIDAY = the never-ending oncology appointment.  It was a lovely week :)

                        Waiting for the port study to begin.  Thank heaven for Littlest Pet shops!

 Z fell asleep on the table after the vascular study.  She NEVER falls asleep in places other than her bed (sometimes in the car, but never in a random place.)  She has been completely exhausted...  This picture doesn't capture what happened, but it was actually really eery...  The lights in the room were dimmed, but there was a light shining right on Zoe... as she started falling asleep, she smiled and I caught a glimpse of her laying on the white sheets, with her hair swept off her face.  It was beautiful and horrifying all at the same time. 

Katie, one of the amazing Child Life educators, was showing Zoe for the second time what was going to happen when she went back for surgery.  In this picture, Zoe is helping give a "shot" to her little doll - the doll wearing the mask to get knocked out with anesthesia. 

Ready to roll for surgery...

If you've had a child get anesthesia before, you know that they "wake up" super confused and really angry.  I began singing to Zoe and she immediately calmed down... It was one of those mothering moments when you know that you make a difference.  We fell asleep holding each other.

Nothing a popsicle can't cure :)

My two favorites...

My beautiful girl is starting to look sick - having poison pumped into your body will do that...  She is incredibly pale and has a lot of little bruises all over her body.  Her hair may be on the way out.  Last night, I was trying to comb out a massive rat's nest she created during her nap and I ended up with two large handfuls of hair...