keeping it real

Remember in my last post when I said that I wasn't worried about Zoe's treatment??  Well, now I am... I started reading more about the side effects of Avastin and kind of freaked out.  The major side effects aren't common but they are SeRiouS!  AAANNNDDD I realize that every drug we take has the potential of serious side effects and reading the warnings for tylenol can freak you out.  But I am just feeling a little unsettled right now.  Zoe unfortunately experienced many of the uncommon side effects of her first round of chemo drugs so I am really praying she can catch a break this time around.  I know Zoe's doctors have had experience with using this drug for treatment and they are very cautious people.  But it's really hard to be the parents and have to make this decision for your child.  UGGGHH!

We are scheduled to begin treatment on Friday, but we have to feel ok about this treatment plan before then.  Overall, I really do feel ok but my heart just can't handle the thought of Zoe experiencing some of the awful side effects.

And a side note to my family: Don't show this to dad or Marsha (insert smiley face), don't call uncle Joe, yes we have the best doctors ever.  If I get 18 phone calls from ya'll today I won't "keep it real" on here any more -- hahaha!